Just when I’ve got everything figured out (or so I thought), life punches me in the face. I don’t like that. But you know, sometimes it takes that punch to realize what you’ve been missing or what you could have. It also made me realize that I can smile again…laugh again…
I guess the problem starts with me. My past is fairly rocky (we’ll get to that bullshit in a future post…or not) and I’m sure most people can relate. But when you have the rocky past coupled with my perfectionist-type personality, questionable self-esteem, and the fact that I had convinced myself I didn’t deserve better…well, it makes for an interesting life. Previously, I had written a bit about this person that has been putting me through hell lately. Yes, it’s a guy. And yes, he’s a douche fuck. Not only is he a guy, he’s someone I’ve known for quite some time…great friend, funny, blah blah blah….
All that aside, it seems strange to me that when a door is closed another one slowly opens. And not just a normal door…a door that I never would’ve thought of opening. Okay, maybe I didn’t open it but it got opened for me. Quite intriguing how things happen at just the right time. We shall see what happens…more to come.
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